slidin and glidin

tease me please me no one needs to know just before i have to go we will take it nice and slow tease me please me just let the feeling grow - nights been sad and lonely since you sang to me and all the same anticipation in mind

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Through this tiny window, I try to search for a corner of my own. I yearned to seek out the peace that I never am able to find in reality. Real peace and comfort that I can be who I am, safe, free and protected from the noises that I experienced in reality. And yet, as much as I traveled far and wide into strange kingdoms, met interesting people and got caught into strange situations, I have yet to find the solace that I so crave for. No peace, no comfort, no silence. I always believe that everyone has a guardian angel, one who will protect her and who will guide her along the right path. However, it seems that most of our guardian angels are either lost themselves or my belief is just imaginary. I always believe that we should be positive about life and remain optimistic that at the end of the tunnel, there will be light, no matter how gray or how dark your days are, there is always that glimpse of light. Yet, I have always been proven that the tunnel is so darn long and that my glimpse of light is so far away and so dim. I may as well be running around in circles in my long and dark tunnel and should give up any hope of ever reaching my glimpse of light. I have always believe that as you swim upwards long enough, no matter how far the distance is, you will definitely reach the surface and you can finally take a deep breathe, one that will free you from your suffocation. That much needed breathe of life, and you will no longer suffocate anymore, freed from the pulls of the murky water underneath. But then again, the swim upwards to the surface seems to be taking forever. It seems like the more I struggle, the more I am sucked under into the depths below and the surface is further and further away from my reach. I just cannot seem to go upwards, to breath that much needed breathe of life. I seem to be forever chained to my suffocation and will never be able to reach salvation at all. Who is there to guide me to that glimpse of light in my tunnel of darkness? Who is there to pull me to the surface and free me from my chains of suffocation? Where is my guardian angel I've been looking for so goddamn long? Have you ever needed someone so bad? *sigh*